so the story, trust it or not.
When I said I was going to die, lot's of things were going on, didn't wanted all that attention,..
I went on a small trip with the few money I had left, telling I was going to die, like, from a cancer. Why ? Because I wanted to end my life and I didn't wanted people to interfer. I've spent few days at a friend place. Then Codydawg and Keenora invited me over, and thought why not as I still had money. Spent a few days there but the words spreaded faster than I though, and things started to move around.
I got caught in my own lies. I shoudl have said stop but didn't found the courage to do so. That's where I blame myself.
Everythings went so fast and I was just not clear in my mind thinking everyday how I should kill myself and days went on.
Everyone have been so awesome and nice. You still saved my life, trust or not
And when I finaly got alone again, leaving timduru's house I watched trains after trains, and I couldn't do it. Ashamed of me I finaly got in a train and went to the foreign legion, got engaged passed the test, and hurted myself and got kicked. I was in the middle of marseille got drunk and called my sister.
For Kurwasuka, I was missing you quiet heavely, but couldn't get back as numeight and I lied over and over again. You know the rest.
I DO NOT ASK FOR FORGIVENESS IT'S UNFORG